MM T 2759. Sketchbook

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Richard S …

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PAL PAM

last Meal
The Garondists’ last Meal

Gunnar H is
departing in the next few
Days – due to
Revolution

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P A Larsen’s estate like
other important Aristocratic Families
in the Florentine period – which was also
known for its great
Interest in Art –
has had the Means to compensate
Executioners for the Performance of
Villainous services –

P A Larsen wishes
of course to donate the estate for his
Retiring Villains’ life-
long Pension – In which case
one of the Villains S B will
hopefully retire

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This cunning vulgar bedrag-
gled Circle has in fact
been able to tyrannize Kristiania
for 20 Years –

with their Backs against
one another

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I believe I have done Norway
a Favour by driving
a Wedge in this Camarilla
consisting of a click of washed out
Men of letters – drunken offspring
of Wealthy men –

– washed out Men
who have used their knowledge of Jurisprudence
to deceive with cunning and impunity
wherever they could – Rich and poor
– Poor Artists and Students
– Housekeepers and Waiters All of
them spiteful / drunken and bedrag-
gled – always assisting one another
prepared at any time to cast
themselves over a passing Victim –

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Horrible 3 Years were over
New Life new Hat
– His large completed Frieze
hung at the Berlin exhibition

All of the Pictures hung – in
the Secession ’s large front hall.

The Man and the Woman are attracted to
one another – Love’s underground
Cable carries its Power into
Their Nerves –

The wires trussed Their Hearts
Together –

My Words besides –

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There were Kiss Vampire –
– There was Jealousy –

In the middle of the large Picture
I painted the past Summer – I
danced with my first true
Love – it was the Memory
of her –

In comes the smiling light-haired
Woman, who wishes to pluck Love’s
Flower – but it won’t be
plucked –

And on the other Side she
peers dressed in Mourning at the
dancing Couple – an outcast –
as I was exiled – by her Dance

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and in the background furious Hope rages
in crazed Embraces –

then the Scream – … – … –

It ends in the Death image
forever restrained by the Dance of Life –

I travelled Home to my
Garden – new Hope was
revived in me – new Strength –
– I then looked about the little
Garden – and observed the budding
Greenery – observed my Flowers
– my Birds – my Animals and

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my Sky.

I had barely become accustomed
to no longer think
about Madame L – it was now ½ a Year ago
I left her.

I had heard that she
had been living hard in Munich
and that she had once again encountered
Gunnar H – that during the last
Half Year she had frequented
his Room –

– You could have spared
Yourself all that Misery he said
to himself – So easy is it for her to
be comforted –

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That Winter his old Aunt
had been shocked by the
most appalling Letters –

She was on the brink of a
Life and Death Struggle –

I was a Villain a
Scoundrel

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Then he heard from a Friend
that in Munich she had
spread nasty Rumours about
me – that I had lived
off her – used her
Money and left her
like a Crook –

I heard that she had
written Letters to my Family
– and told them that I had behaved
like a Villain – a despicable Villain
whom one could spit in
the Face –

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His three Years were ruined
– He had arrived like
a wandering Balladeer at
the affluent Woman’s Door –

Open up Your Gate he had
said – You are pretty – I am
weary and lovesick – Will You
serve me from Your Abundant
table of Love –

Sit dear Bard the affluent
Woman had [said] – Help Yourself
from my table of Love – and so
he ate to his Heart’s content – but
there was Venom in the Food – and
He sat at the Table together
with Death, Illness and Venom

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For her You have indeed
ruined 3 years of your Life –
– He rarely left his
Garden –

Summer arrived – with its
intense colours – Vivid green
against vivid blue – vivid
yellow against vivid Red.

The City’s brightly dressed Women
came and filled it –

Backfisch filled the
Streets – and the fields
like large red and white and
yellow Flowers –

The Fishermen and Villagers
retreated more into the background –

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The summer night settled white
and golden – light and semi-dark
over the motley Colours –
and the People walked in pairs
– Men and Women and lovers –
The brightly dressed Women of
the City soon gathered in large Groups
– conversed together and bantered
– like a great bouquet of Flowers
– The men stood in lines in
more black dark apparel – and
observed them as though ready for the Attack –
– In pairs they sat by
the Boulder on the Beach

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beyond it lay the Fjord in a blue
Veil and long Waves drew
themselves Up against the Boulder and burst
– Out yonder Golden Sailboats glided
slowly on a little Breeze –

Boats carrying Men and Women like
multi-coloured Flowers in
elongated Bowls – Music and
Laughter were audible –

Above hung the golden Moon

– A golden Column lay in
the Water quivering in the Waves

– yet behind this the Life
of Big city Folk flowed

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like a Current Side by Side
[with] the Life of the Residents

– I had been living for a long time
secluded in my Garden
when the young Painter C . came down –
– You must get out he said and
observe People You are too quiet.
– There is considerable – Commotion – here
– and then he began to
frequent the Village Hotels and
the Spirits Store –

– Aasgårdstrand had
gained a new Institution – a
Police officer –

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The new Man was a proud sight
in his Uniform –

He stood most often in the Square
with left Hand on his Hip
– looking like Napoleon the Third –

Occasionally one saw him
with a bloody Eye –

I have had a little Scuffle he
says –

That meant that he had been
intoxicated –

Aside from that he boasted of his
Heroic deeds as a Policeman

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Midsummer Eve S and I were
sitting on the Hotel’s Veranda
sipping a Highball

The City lay in a white Dreamy
Veil with its modest
white Houses – and that
pale violet Water –

The Chestnuts stood with their large
Candles in full bloom –

– Well if it isn’t
Hogshead said C . – he’s
been around to the Hotels and now
he’s on his way here –

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He’s good and soused now –
and there is the Police officer
he too is headed in this direction –

That’s how he was Hogshead – he had travelled for
3 Years in China – and set
aside a pretty Sum of Money –
– while out there he Often
thought about that
Severine here in Aasgaardstrand
– He was wont to take
many a Swig in the Ports
of the sea of China – and

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to have a look at the Chinese ladies
as well – but he sang oh
Christine out there – Oh Christine
You are my Viv – and he
thought about her constantly –

It would be a Festive occasion when
he finally returned home – he
thought –

He returned home this Spring
– and his pretty Christine
had undergone transformations in her hull –
he noticed – Oh – Christine
what has happened to You the way You

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look in your Rigging –

So Hogshead went from the Spirits store
to Hotel V. and to Hotel
– and everywhere he imbibed
– He returned home drunk and
– then he cried pitifully –
Oh my Christine – who the Devil
– who has done this –

And then he proceeded to inquire
‘bout him everywhere – if anyone
knew ‘im – and he drank
with them all – for there
were many who had taken
an interest

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He suspected the Policeman
– but – nothing came of
Anything – there was no Answer
to be had –

So he drank up his Money
so the Gold and Silver ran off
him – and with a more flushed and stupefied
expression he stared into space –

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The Policeman and Hogshead
were walking to and fro –
when a file of brightly clad
Backfisch strolled by laughing

Then bonfires were lit in the
Hills – and – Accordian
music could be heard –

The summer night threw a gentle
Veil over it all –

Heaven knows if she will come
Miss L said C . –

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– She has threatened often –

– I have a Hunch that
she might said Brandt –
I flinch every time I see
a Female – who is tall said
Brandt –

Out of the blue a Newspaper
was started in the Village Aasgaardsreien –
– A literary Elite had
arisen amongst the residents of
the Village –

It was headed by the Police officer

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and the Merchant S .

It was said that Police officer Pedersen
had his Eye on the pretty
young Merchant’s daughter –

She was Young in her first bloom
and Pedersen was over 40 and had
a Wife and Children –

Yet Police officer Pedersen had
his Uniform mind you – and stood
firmly on his Feet when he
wasn’t staggering – and he was a
crafty Don Juan – Besides the
Summer evenings were so dreamy
and sultry – and the scent of kelp and the Sea
– Spruce and blooming Chokecherry –
led the Mind to thoughts of love –

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Aasgaardsreien was published – in a
little square Format –
– There were Poems – and Politics
and Police officer Pedersen ’s Heroic deeds

There was a Poem by a Backfisch
– When I peer into the depths of the Sea
– it is as if I catch sight of
Life’s mysteries – Life’s profound
Mysteries – with the beautiful
Surface above –

Oh My Mystery – My
Sea My Life – unfathomable –

And the Villagers sniggered and made fun

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of the Paper and the Residents enjoyed
themselves immensely –

In the Morning I walked towards
the Woods – first along the Road with
the small serene Houses on
either Side – in the Gardens with
blooming Cherry trees – and Flowers
and Vegetation –

There I greeted all the sweet
Little children – their Voices
were like a refreshing Drink in my
sick Mind – Their large Eyes
– a beautiful bygone World
I had once inhabited – Their delightful

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spring scampering a
Sight for sore Eyes –

And the Little girls – how they were like
Women and the Little boys how they were like Men –
– the Little girls – shy impish –
graceful and wily –

The Boys – awkward – arrogant – naive
and bold – they shuffled about
obeying Nature’s Law –

– and then the Forest began – the
young Nascent wood – light green
Small spruces – like small church spires –
taller and more robust until the Forest
appeared like a great sacral

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Church – Trunks upon Trunks
– Pillers upon Pillers – and the Birds
provided the Music –

And my Thoughts turned to other Days
the selfsame Spring days I had
romped here with the light-blue
Madame T Here where Nature
became a Celebration of Spring
with her – until Habit and
Autumn arrived – and coloured Nature
a blood-tinted Scream –
and then again and again my
Thoughts return to the most recent one
who had become the black Angel of my Life
– Thoughts that tore my Heart asunder
with Remorse, Despair – Compassion

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Agony and Abhorrence –

And my thoughts rose and fell
now in Self-recrimination – now
in desperate Abhorrence – Have I
brought her to Hell’s Fire?

And am I Guilty even though
it had been a mutual Agreement –
– And if she meant it
in earnest had I not advised
her to be a little patient –
Until Calm and Health returned –

And had she not danced
at my Sickbed – thrown herself
into the Arms of Friends and Foes
– spit upon and disparaged me

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Kristian Krohg
had formerly been a stout
Fellow – a bit foppish –

Now he was a
slimy – soft-horned
Snail – who carried a
Brothel on his Back
In this Brothel were
Procurers
and Procuresses

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Without compassion seen me
tormented and afflicted before her Eyes –
– And was it not my Aim
that I thought I must sacrifice everything
[for] my Work my Art
– and was it not her Obligation
to sacrifice herself for her Beloved’s
Art –

I walked back to the Village
and greeted Acquaintances Fishermen
and Children – Morten Dammen
the Cottages – Police officer Pedersen –
and Hogshead was also there –
Flushed he approaches
me near the Spirits Store

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Here let us have a Drink – Very well
I said –

To your health we – both said –
– Listen Here he said – Do You know
Severine – No I said

He peered searchingly at me –
apprehensive – and inquiring –

Then with a Squint in his Eyes –

You don’t know Severine –

No I said –

Yes Severine he said – but said
no more –

Then he went out to meet
Pedersen – singing oh Women
Duplicity in them abides –

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Then I took a Sailing trip with that
Daft Swede – who now and
then moored here with his Boat
– Out in the Silver white
Shaft of sunlight– the mother of pearl
Land of the Sun facing the mouth of the Sea –
– Here I felt healthier
My mind more tranquil – as though I was sailing
into the Kingdom of the Sun –
and the Daft one sang with an
oddly low melancholy
Voice – I travelled to America

to gather Gold for Thee
– and later stood on
the Quay uttering the following Words
Here I am with Gold for Thee
You are the Gold of my Heart

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Later Carsten and I chewed the fat up at
the Hotels and I went home late
– by the House belonging to Hogshead and Severine
a Spectacle could be heard –

I’m warnin’ Ya Officer Pedersen – Ya
better watch out –

I have lighted the Glass
lantern – and Severine and I
were ‘bout to have us a nice time
– and then You show up – Ya better
Watch out –

But the next Day Officer
Pedersen stands in the Square with
a Bloody Eye –

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One fetched the Mail
At Midday – One always
waited half an hour in front of
the little whitewashed Post Office with
the Chestnut tree above the entrance –
All the Village Guests – greeted one another
– it was colourful and resplendent there
with the bright
Bathing guests’ radiant Colours –
– There one greeted the Doctor and his Wife
– Ladies and Gentlemen –
– There one heard the latest news –
Have You heard – Morten Dammen
is dead – The Old hunchbacked
Fisherman – who looked like a brown
Boulder – What he died of

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no one knew –

– One Woman recounted – he had
felt pain –

He lay for three Days then
he could no longer lie – but
knelt with his Head down on the Bed –
– Then he said – I don’t understand
what is going on – then he died
– Then he jolted upright –

Madame D . dead –
– Shot in Tiflis by a Lover.
– Madame D … whom he had
Escorted to the Steamboat that time
he met Madame L – Whom he had
Envied with her Children and

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He liked being in the Garden most of all
where he could be alone
undisturbed with his thoughts –

The Painter C – came now and then You must
get out – he said – get your fill of pretty
Women – You will become old like this –
– Carsten was a gifted Painter
– very amusing – entertaining –
mostly spiteful – Once in a while I went
out with him and binged –

– Now he meandered here undisturbed
amongst his Trees –

– Was is not Nemesis after all –
was is not god –

– It was immaterial what
Name this enigma was given –

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But what was the Transgression then
– He loved everything in this
Garden unperturbed – wildly – the animals – Bees
Trees Flowers – And did they not
Follow [Nature’s] Laws – ?

– God is Unity –
All is one – primal light – electricity
– everything burns –
Humans Animals Plants –
– Trees – they radiate like
Flames from the Earth –
Even in Stones there is Fire –
If one strikes a Stone – it
emits Fire – unreleased Energy
All is Life – even in the Stone’s

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Hard Mass –

Even in the Stone there is Will –

– In Humans the Human
Will exists already in
the Embryo – in Man’s Desire and
Woman’s Abandonment –

– In the Stone the Will is to achieve Form
Crystallisation

– Everything is in us – and we are in everything –

– The smallest unit splits into smaller parts
the largest gather into one great
Unity –

The Earth is a living Cell and
we are Microorganisms – on its surface –
– God is in us and we are in God –

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Picture Women in the Garden

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We sin against the Unity when
we sin against the Law of Unity –
– and is not Experience
preserved in the Bible’s ancient
truths –

And is not Christ – Son of
this these Truths –

A Trace of this Unity –
– And if we do not follow these
Laws – do we not then experience Hell
in our beings – and do we not have a Trace in us

He walked about his Blooming
Garden and observed this lavish
overflowing Life – and thought about
his Inner self a Desert thirsting for

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Repose in the Unfolding of the Law –
the Law to reproduce – oneself –
to bear Fruit –

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He gave a start – up there
by the House stood a Woman – with
bowed Head –

– It was Miss D – but at first
he had thought it was
Miss L – She resembled her in
her Bowed Head

– And he knew that she lived
together with Miss L –

And he understood that it was Because of
her

– I know why You came
he said –

Come in and have a seat –

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They sat Next to one another –
– I know why You are here
he said –

– Yes she said – I was sent by
her – Go to her –

I cannot – it has to
end – It is impossible –

– She loves You so – she
said –

– Yes but the whole thing is
impossible – It is too much for me
it would be Hell the way it
was – I have been tormented to death for
3 Years – And when one is not in love
– why should one marry

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She is not thinking about that any longer
she said – she requests very
little merely to be together
with You – to see You –

– But what for what for exclaimed B
writhing in Anguish –

It is too much for me – it will
only be Hell and bad for us
both –

Look at me here – can You
see I am rather happy as far
as I can be – it was
Hell for both of us I cannot
begin all over again – and I must say
she was wicked towards me

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Miss D . – sat still –

Oh I have a terrible feeling – it
will turn out badly –

– I cannot do more said B. decisively
– it is impossible –
– And Miss D. left –
– And Brandt was left with Doubt and
Anxiety – No end to it – Has
she not amused herself for 4 Years
– lived with G H – and others –
spread the most terrible Rumours about
him – and now once more –

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– He sat on the Seashore
– the long gentle Waves floated
in toward the Boulder and burst one
after the other – They reflected the Sky’s
white Clouds – a glossy
shining Surface but
underneath the small bands of Waves
green Boulders were visible – dark
strange Shapes – A view of
a new World under there –

It was the Backfisch’s Ode to
the Sea – Life with its Mysteries
– and its clear mirrored Surface –

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The Days passed in this manner –

One Day Bødtker is standing in the Garden
– Dark sinister Countenance – one
of the Bohemian’s Circle – [which] he
more or less had joined –

I know why You have come
I said – let us sit –
With his intense shrill
Voice he thus proceeded –

I tell You You must speak
to her – This will be her demise

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I met … one early Spring
when everything around me was in love I
saw and understood that she was experienced
in Life – she was 30 Years old and well-off

– I made a few Advances towards her
as one does when the Blood
is effervescent – But I did not touch
her – it was not until one day at
a lively Champagne party she gave
that she propelled the relationship into existence – and
I can rightfully say that she propelled it into existence –

– I broke down seriously ill
immediately afterward – overworked
as I already was after a miserable
and long Artist’s life –

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One Night in a high Fever she
comes up to my Room with
drunken Painters – and dances –

I became very ill –

Did I believe she loved me – actually
– It was a Relationship built
on a clear Understanding – between adult
human beings – Do You wish to
be a part of this Relationship as a Friend –

For I am not able to love – and
marry – a Love for life it is
not –

I will travel abroad – have finally
received funds – and will work for

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my Art –

She remains entrenched in my
Hotel –

I am still in poor health –
am not getting better –

A life begins that is filled
with Misery Scenes, Tears –
Rage – Compassion –

– Until I say let us be
separated from one another – let me collect
myself – and let us see –

She is in the Arms of that
revoltingly obese G. H.

Well – then it is possible
it is finished –

I barely begin to

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recover – when she throws herself at me
again Tears – Scenes – Rage –
Compassion – I travel in [a state of]
Despair and Insomnia to a
Sanatorium – My Sleep has vanished
– She travels to Berlin –
– Then I received a Letter in which
she recounts that she is
on the brink of Death – overtaken by
Consumption –

In hopeless Desperation –
at a loss as to what I should
do – I make the trip to visit her sick
as I was – and allow her to finance
the Trip – the wealthy Woman
– Penniless and deprived as I was
In Desperation I write and proposed Marriage

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I meet her Abroad
healthy – hence a Lie the Consumption

I suspected Deceit –

We travelled to Italy – in order to see
what I could do – I break
down again – and flee to
a nerve Sanatorium in Norway –
Reclusive, insomniac – until I
little by little after 1½ Years
have gradually recovered –

– I have Since heard a great deal
about her – She has lived
wildly everywhere – in the most vile manner
circulated slander about me to my Friends
– and even claimed that I had used her
Money

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She has incited a Romanian
to assassinate me –

– For Years She has embittered
the Lives of my poor aging Aunt –
and my sister –

I do not love her –
and I never will –

If she is as You say totally
changed – I shall again attempt
to help her –

But this time everything shall be clarified once
and for all –

Everything that I have told You

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You will tell her –

Everthing is useless if this
is not made clear –

If I am to help her – then
she must be sure to take what I
can give her – and she must
give in to my Will –

– If You promise this – then I shall
make an attempt –

I give you my
Word. I will make an attempt one more time

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She and I we are not
born under the same Conditions –
I in a poor Home – and with Hereditary
Disease –

She the youngest pampered Daughter
in an affluent Home –

– Healthy and hale
– she was given everything –

Two of Mankind’s most terrible
Enemies were my legacy – The legacies
of Consumption and of Mental Illness –
Disease and Insanity and Death
were the black Angels that stood
by my Cradle

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A Mother who died early – gave me
the seed of Consumption – a distraught – Father
religiously pious verging on Madness –
from an old Lineage – gave me
the Seeds of Insanity –

– From Birth – the Angels of Angst
– Sorrow – Death stood by
my Side followed me outdoors when
I played – followed me under the Spring
Sun – during Summer’s Splendour –

– They stood by my Side in the Evening
when I closed my Eyes –
and threatened me with Death Hell and
eternal Damnation –

And it often happened that
I woke up in the Night – and

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stared in wild Fear out into the Room

Am I in Hell –

Illness followed me throughout
my entire Childhood and Youth –
– The germ of Consumption planted its blood-red Banner
victoriously on my white Hand-
kerchief – And my Beloved [family members] died
One after the Other –

One Christmas I lie 13 Years
Old – the Blood pours out
of my Mouth – the Fever
rages in my Veins – Angst
shrieked inside of me

Now right now in the next Second
I shall stand in front of my Judge – and
You shall be sentenced to eternal damnation –

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He was saved – but his Youth
was worm-eaten – and Doubt – Angst
and Illness – followed him

– There he stood alone in
Life – with broken Spirit
– He had become accustomed
to the Thought of not
marrying. Nor did he have
the Right – should he create
– a Diseased Home in the World –
Should his Youth be lived over
again?

– As a Painter – even less – Art
– the only Goal –
– But he felt – he could
find a Woman – who could

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be important to him – outside of Marriage.
– The Bohemian period came with its
free Love – God – and everything [else] were overthrown
– everyone raging in a wild crazy
Dance of Life – a blood-red Sun hung
in the Sky – the Cross was empty –

– But I could not liberate myself
from Mortal fear – and the constant
Thought of Life –

– Then an experienced Worldly woman appeared
and I received the Baptism of Fire –
I was subjected here to the whole
Disaster of Love, Bødtker
– and I was for several Years nearly
mad – the Terrible face of
Mental Illness – reared its warped Head

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You know my Picture Scream –
I was overwrought – to the extreme –
Nature shrieked in my Blood – my Wire
was about to burst – when a blond
woman aided me with her Spring smile –

– You know my Pictures and
know that I have experienced every feeling – –

– After that I gave up Hope
of being able to love –

But it is then I meet this Woman
– wealthy pampered – healthy – irresponsible –
– I believe I knew her –

From when she was quite little ran about
in Homansbyen’s Back courtyards – scheming –
– a spiteful red-haired little Thing –

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Always goading the Boys into fighting each other
– pulling her Girlfriends’ Hair –
– Always half-drowning in Toys
– which she broke into pieces –

Screeching when she did not get
a Doll – destroying the Doll when
she has gotten it –

– And then she received an Allowance from the time she
was 15 Years old – travelled abroad and yet
she still has this Backyard life –

Schemed – lied – Howled when
she did not get the large Doll
the Man – Destroying it when
she possessed it –

– I believe that if I had loved
her she would have discarded me herself

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Such is the Impression I
have gotten of her – during these three Years –
– And she is liberal with her gifts – Bødtker
Wealthy folks’ Gifts are dual
Theft – first the Money is stolen then
one steals People’s Hearts –
– She gave Money away everywhere
in large Sums in Berlin in Munich
– and here – She had an
Entourage of Friends – who were
prepared to help her –
– They became my Hangmen

– Her Countenance reveals
everything –

You know my Picture –
three Women –

The Spring woman with golden locks – the Whore – and Grief

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Her Smile – which from the alluring
Smile of Spring was intended to become the Mother’s smile
the Smile of contentment –

A Mistress’s – Grimace of a smile –
–the Mask’s bloody Smile of contentment –
– An Actress in Life’s Theatre –
– and the Visage of Grief or the Night has
become a frightful Medusa Head image –

– I feared this
Face from the first Moment –

– But Compassion contrived
through Tears and Reproaches
to ensnare me

– I felt it as my Duty to
allow myself to be tortured by her
– until the Crisis was over –

– I wished to help her overcome

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the terrible Foe Love’s
Mental affliction – the one she had for me
– and Consumption – which threatened her
– I became Ill – and Insanity
once again reared its Head in
me – She was healed at least
of the Illness – and I must believe
that Time will help her overcome this
other matter –

Bødtker – I was exhausted in the
extreme – The bow cannot stand any more
Tension do You hear – You
are Responsible

I do not think I have the Right to marry
You have given Your Word of Honour that all
this will be explained and that she will abide by the Conditions –

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It was Late Summer – and the Trees bore
Fruit – I had promised to
come and speak with her
– Like a threatening Apparition I
imagined it –

and he postposed and postponed it in order to
be able to prepare himself –

For it was a matter of Life and Death
Either or – Either she is
a changed Person – or it is
Death –

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A Woman’s Smile – is threefold –
Spring Summer Winter –
Alluring like Spring – in sweet Expectation
fragrant – shy and – lovely
seductive – like the birdsong of Spring
and Field Flowers –

– Summer’s intoxicated Smile – over
the burgeoning Fruit – the Mother’s Smile of Contentment
Winter’s, Grief’s Death’s Smile
solemn and painful like the Elixir
of Death – the Consummation of Life –

The Caricature is of the Maitress –
The perpetual Smile – the
eternally seductive Smile – the Smile of
Seduction and the Victorious Smile – Victory over
the Man – which also resembles the Smile
of the Jew – the enactment of a coup –
the bloody Smile –

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Then the Mother’s proud, content smile
disappeared –

But Winter’s, Grief’s,
Solemnity’s Smile – became the Medusa
head’s terrible Doomed Smile –
The appalling Grimace of
Disaster, Grief Atrocity –

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The Power of Money –

From the time she was 15
– when as a naughty gire
from Homansby she as a Child had
goaded – played – schemed amongst
the City’s Back Courtyards – Boys and Girls – as a 15-Year-Old
when she received her Allowance
left this Traffic from Childhood days –

– She learned early to exploit
the Money for her Intrigues

She was utterly given to
dispensing it –

Nothing is more repulsive than
wealthy folks’ Handouts – It is
Theft – The Rich man is doubly a

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Thief – first he has stolen
the Money and then he steals
People’s Hearts with his Handouts –

She gave away money at Christmas and Easter
and Donations on other Days – and Flowers
– and she had an entourage of Friends
bought for a trifle

– She constantly felt
wronged – Because she had
been accustomed to – merely
pointing to a Thing in order to
get it –

She alone had the right to
love – or kiss – the Man
who kissed was always one … –
– When someone kissed her then
he became an object for her Whims
– otherwise he was a Villain who

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would pay with his blood –

Those who loved her she soon
tired of – those
who did not love her – she had
the Right to destroy –
and her Money and her
Body as well which she
readily offered for the purpose if
her Revenge could be appeased –
provided her continuously with
ready Hangmen –

And she knew she could
permit herself anything – for, even though
she created the worst Scandals –

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– She had an Angel’s face
at the ready – a penitent Woman’s
Expression – – and with her cold
Hand could bestow from her
Money purse –

After having destroyed a
Painter who was considered the
best in the land – with her
Vulgar Schemes – she knew
what she would do –

she married a
mediocre Talent – Acquired some
Pictures here and there –

And moreover she was interesting –
by virtue of that “Sad Story” with the
the poor Genius – and she became
an illustrious Martyr for Art
– a generous Patroness of Art

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Man is of a dreamy
Nature – In his Dreams he garners
the Virility to impregnate
Woman – who is always watchful
in order to receive
Man’s Virility –

Man is the Dreamer Child
and God – hence the Courageous

Woman is Earth – the apprehensive one
always prepared for impregnation when
the Man wishes – Apprehensive that the
Impregnation shall occur at the right
Time – and apprehensive that the Seed should
thrive – Hence Woman’s countless
Lies and Deceptions –

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The Caricature of a Man is
thus the Dreamer who walks
on the Edge of a Gable and falls
down at the Mention of his Name
the Caricature of a Woman is
a Whore who always Day and Night
takes care to outwit the Man
– and cause him to Fall

Thus Woman is also the
most patient

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PAM

H. ‹Chr›
or Virtue/Chastity
in
the Centre

CG. LR Em

Forward, forward
Warriors Crusaders
Men of the Enlightenment –
Clad in armour
Men –

1) Thore Hund
from Hauklogaland

2) The Herd of Bastards
under GH

The Battle of Stiklestad

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The Ladies’
unburned Witch

The Herd of Wholesalers
or
Kalvinger
or
Kvalier

The Herd of
unburned Witches
Forward Forward Cuckold!

Norway’s only
Herd of Poets
or the
effervescent Herd

Champagne

P.AL

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Family … B

The Family should provide
Hangmen’s Pension
as they did previously
…